TELANGANA WOMEN'S INTELLECTUAL DISCUSSION

On 26 th January,2011,republic day, I got an opportunity of involving in some good discussions on actual situation of our country.I was invited to a discussion on TELANGANA WOMEN'S INTELLECTUAL COMMITTE.It was different form all the others because some extra ordinary women from all the sectors of the society walked in for open discussion and their aspirations regarding telangana moment.I felt this as a good discussion because people were actually discussing the topic and the need for telangana.Many women,in much more then the expected numbers came there.I have some where heard that women's empowerment, political and social consciousness of women has been related to socio-economic status of the country.If that is true the situation of the country has really improved.We have changed from "just survive" situation to a "make a change" state of mind.

My topic was aspirations of Muslim girl students regarding telangana.I spoke this after discussing with many of my friends.I responded this when there was a cat fight about backward class or muslims nd all were digging and clinging to past and fighing and all instead of fair discussions about aspirations of telangana.
                                    Thanks to z.p.h.s l.m.d colony urdu medium staff,shahanaz fathima,shafia kouser,afreen,ayesha sultana,murtuza,n.p, and many other friends who helped for the mini scale research on the topic.
                                                                            

LET ME

The way i follow is always new not strange it thrills me.

I feel connected and myself with it.
So plz dont bother about me and hold me back with your care...
I am following something which i cant figure out right now.
It may seem dark,full of trouble.
It may appear risky, untraveled.
Or it may seem silly,stupid and common ,which you may feel i do not deserve..
But the way amuse me.
I may not reach it.
Or i may feel how freak was i to follow it
But plz let me go to the extent i can..
Plz let me discover myself.
I know you will always be there when i fall apart and return.
You say let me come along with you...
But that journey would be ours not mine...
And I want this one to be mine..
I want to test myself..
Test the skills u have taught me.
Why don't you feel proud when i walk alone all by myself?
Why do you want to hold my hand even when I am able to walk..
My path..Its pulling me.
I can feel its gravity,the hope for the new world which lie undiscovered.
Waiting just for me to unfold.
A new turn,a future for us..
Now you say that if i don't want u to come along with you i will assign some one else.
But please realize on this path and particularly this one i need to travel on my own.
I am strong enough to deal
If I am not strong the troubles in my way will make me...
After all my quest is for unknown.
It may lead to glory or to the doom.
I do not know.
Still i want to go.
But i will not be able to take even a single step when you are dissatisfied...
I know the paradise lies under your feet.
but let me discover and realize the door to it.


                                                                                                                               

                                                                                                      -Starlet

                                                                                                              

CLASHES

In the battle of fundamentalism and modernity i always trouble my heart and my mind..

To what extent shall I embrace the conventional,contemporary and modern traditions.

Should I act according to the situation or should I stick to what I am supposed to do.

Should I allow myself to act according to the reason,a reason to do everything,a reason to justify what ever i have

acted in the past and whatever i am going to act,every step i take or should i simply go by emotions?

What is the dividing line between individualism and selfishness?

A distinguishing point between fun and happiness?

follow principles but on what principles they are laid on?

Should i do something because it is the safest thing to do or should i take risk and offend the unjust?

Are certain things really unjust or am i the only one who is bothered?

How do i know that every time i act am i acting with courage or madness for a wild goose chase?

How do i know if my dreams are realistic or am i compromising on my dreams thinking they are too imaginary and fancy?

Is following my heart offending others?

Is it really hurting them or hurting their unthoughtful, prejudiced ego and emotions?

What are the things i can change and the things i cant change?

I aspire freedom but to what extent?

I aspire practicing traditions but to what extent should i practice?

Will this lead to open mind or will i be blinded by faith?

I want to be creative but what can be the limit of my creativity and free thinking?

Is my creativity killing the rules and regulations?

Is my creativity actually disturbing the system?

Is the system actually helping things to happen or limiting the man's potential?

Is there any equilibrium point?

Then one of the thing my heart replied is the that "The point,the limit,the extent is where your soul and heart stays unpolluted and pure."

But how do i know that?

                    I think my life is full of never ending questions.....